“But why do you wanna keep getting bigger?” “You’re big enough” Etc. etc. I hear this all the time. That’s YOUR opinion. I don’t care what YOU or anybody thinks. I do this for ME. "They always say too much. I always say too much OPINION." I don’t ask hunters why they want to shoot and kill animals for enjoyment. I don’t question those who like to get up early and yard sale. Hell, I don’t question the drinkers and smokers why they do what they do…that is their business. I don’t question people because we are all different. What I do though is respect people’s passions and likes. Consequently, I expect the same in return.
OK, now that I have touched on that…let me get into why I chose bodybuilding. Bodybuilding forces self-discipline. There is nothing like setting goals that you think are unachievable, then blowing past that goal. Each year I look back and take pride in knowing that all the hard work I have put in is visible. Sure the aesthetics aspect is nice, but there’s more to than just “getting big.” This stuff takes determination, will power, fortitude, consistency, and to put it lightly, straight ball-busting work.
Bodybuilding produces much more than muscular growth. I have grown from bodybuilding in the sense I have learned to be realistic with myself. Yes, things are achievable, but we also must be realistic with where we currently are compared to what we WANT to be. You can't cheat the grind, and the mirror reflects that. I also have grown from bodybuilding in the sense that it instilled a work ethic in me like nothing else. Wrestling was the only thing that mimicked bodybuilding, but even it takes a backseat. Overall as a person I have grown in the fact that I am now more self disciplined, consistent, determined, and motivated than ever. I have learned to set goals which I will do everything in my power to not only achieve, but to exceed.This applies to all aspects of my life. I now realize that if I truly put my mind to something, and put all my passion and 100% of me into it, that I can achieve great things. When you truly believe in yourself, you can do almost anything. I realize we have one shot at this thing called life on Earth. Why settle for mediocrity when capable of so much more?
I look back at how far I’ve come and it’s rewarding to see that I am responsible for that. Nobody helped me. I did the meal prepping. I force fed the times I wasn’t hungry. I skipped the desserts and insane home cooked meals. I passed up food when I was insatiably hungry. I made myself do that workout when I had had only 3 hours of sleep and felt like crap. I did this, and despite what anyone says, they cannot take that away from me. I love the feeling of a skin-splitting muscle pump in the gym so tight that it hurts (research what Arnold says about the pump!), I love the feeling of repping a weight 10 times that I would have not dared try for one a year or two ago, I love the feeling of nearly passing out after a 30 rep squat set while my quads are so engorged with blood and searing with an indescribable fiery pain…and then KEEP going past that threshold until I reach ultimate physical failure. I love those feelings as well as the pain that accompanies them. Why? Because I know with each rep I push past the pain barrier while ignoring my mind telling me to stop, each chicken breast or egg white, each and every single rep or food or research I do, each limit and boundary I push past, that it’s going to make me better. I and no one else are responsible for the results I achieve....I EARNED this. I enjoy doing what was thought to be unattainable, that most people cannot do. Bodybuilding helps me block out all the bullshit that is going on in life. When I am in the gym, I forget the stress and the messed up world around me. I am in there to accomplish one goal…to improve. Overall, not only have I become physically strong, I have become a strong person thanks to this game we call bodybuilding.
In a nutshell....
That is why I am a bodybuilder.
Yesterday I had a much needed rest day. I was unreal exhausted. My body was begging for more sleep. For the first time in a long time, I was out like a light by 9:00 PM! I also dropped my carbs significantly (to around 100) and was way drier, harder, and vascular....woke up this morning 3 pounds lighter....that'll change once I introduce em back today!